I've found a friend who died for me

Argh.I need to get a life.Its another holiday,and as usual,I am sitting in front of the com.I need to go out more like the SMRT advertisement suggests.My classmates are out playing Dota today. Dotaing,they call it. Actually,everyone's dotaing now.Someone please educate me,what's so special about Dota?I dont mean to be rude but,I just dont understand.I just hate being left out.And it aint the first time.First it was the card game,then Maple,then now dota.Hmpf.I mean,I cant be sitting in front of the com everyday playing Winning Eleven/Pro Evolution Soccer.For now,I shall just randomly shoot at some stuff.

All Chelsea fans: I dont care who the hell is your manager,but your team sucks. I hate teams that buy their way to glory. (Oh shut up,Man U trained their own youngsters to form the backbone of the side.Want proof?here's smth.1999)I mean really.You look at the current Chelsea side and I can only see three pre-Abramovich players:John Terry,William Gallas and Frank Lampard. And they have no youngsters from their training academy that's worth batting an eyelid about.With names like Boy-Boy Mosai,how to succeed?Dont come bragging about Mourinho and what he's done cos without money,he's shit.And I'd like to point out that two of Chelsea's finest players were signed by Ranieri,just that he got sacked before they arrived.Without Robben and Cech,Chelsea would totally suck.Bottom line:Chelsea still sucks.

With that off my chest,I shall move on. Ahha. On to Np.Well,this year we take over around June as the overall lau das.I have a weird sense of anticipation.Not cos we can tekan people,but for the whole year in general.We'd been briefed by Sir Derrick the plan for the year and its really exciting. I feel that if he's around,we will have the best year in Np. Oh damn.ATC beckons again and i swear I'll whack Ongky if he makes us go with Area 2 again. They simply suck.How dare they bully one of us?Sheesh.Just becos we're from a different area aint dont mean they can ostracize us and make one of us feel bad just cos he's fat.I mean,what kind of teens are they?

Ok.Hmmm.Now,lemme comment on smth.I really feel that my class sucks.No kidding.Damn.Whenver I see 3d I get jealous cos almost 30 Humilitarians r in it. That will definitely make their class gel easier cos most of them already know one another.But 3f has such an even spread tt it causes friction. Damn.I dont even talk to others except for ex-2h and a few other guys like charles,wei han,joe and guo mun.I feel that I wanna make friends,yet I dunno how.Its like shucks man.I hate my class.For now,I must stress.Really hope tt 3f will start to bond.Also hope that my feelings will change after 1-2months.

Oh ya.Have a feeling that my academic year will be great after knowing my teachers (except fer Physics cos he's a BORE) Oh well.A great year to look forward to,I hope. I also feel that its time I thought about what I'm gonna do in the future. For too long,when people ask me what I wanna be,my answer has been I dunno yet.Now's the time to think and set my paths. I could do journalism cos its my forte and come to think of it,I really dont have other strong points.To do journalism,I must get an arts degree I suppose.So here's to my first ambition?

Oh.My birthday's round the corner too. All readers your attn pls: I want presents!actually, I feel that smth from the heart is better.I'd rather receive just a "Happy bdae" than have a gift cos I want smth from the bottom of their hearts. Lately,I've had a wild suggestion: I think I should have my bdae celebration at the airport. NOT. But kudos to the bright mind who thought of it though =). While I'm on this, I might as well vent my frustration cos a certain someone has told me smth and I'm to keep it a secret till Dec. What the hell?! Dec is 11mths away. OH shucks.I'll probably forget about it. HOPEFULLY.

That brings me to the end of a particularly long rant on a typically boring day of my life.-.-

I am so happy.Right now I feel more in line with God's marvellousness than I have ever before.This week has been a whirl of emotions for me, with a mix of happiness,disappointment,frustration and excited anticipation. It started off fine on Tues, which was the first day of school. I really didnt expect my class to hit it off from the start but over the course of this week, I feel that 3f might not gel.

But the real story begins on Thurs night,when I was talking to my meix.I finally came clean and asked her why she didnt want to accept my countless invitations to church.(I have to admit,at first i was jus trying to psycho her).When she came back to me, her reply was very hurting and it prompted me to make a silly promise: I would not ask her to go to church again. Till now, I'm still mystified at my ultimate stupidity. I was hurt,angry (at myself),disappointed and frustrated to the point that I stopped just short of crying to sleep (so drama sia!haha). I feel that the previous post really just struck the surface of how rotten I felt that night.

That night, I prayed for her. I really did. And somehow I forgot that just earlier in the day, I offered another friend (no names on my blog.. :p) to bring her to PLMC. So on friday night, just cos I had nothing much to do,I asked her again. Her reply was super-positive and I was super happy! (Okay,she's a backslided Christian,but don't they all count?) Then I found out that her main "motive" was to get her bf to go to church as well and she was thinking of killing two birds with one stone. Being the natural opportunist that I am,I immediately siad that they could both come.Haha..her reply was super-great as she told me she'd ask and there shouldnt be any problems. Also, she said she could be coming next week!

Wow.I was completely blown away lor..its like,a change from being so down to so happy and joyful in less than 24hours.And I know that this is by the Grace of God. Its like,two for the price of one lor..and I'm super glad to be part of God's wonderful plan. Yeah,I know tons of sh*t can happen in the next week but I'll take each day as it comes..God is great!

Oh shit man. What the hell was I thinking when I made tt promise?shoots.wasted and flushed down 2 years+ of hard work when I promised her I wldnt invite her to church again. Mei Ching and Mich, if u r reading this,u have my full permission to blast my head off cos I will probably be so darn mad with myself tt i tear off my head anyway.ARGH.I'll give full marks for my stupidity tonight.Ohmigoodness, I'm a dumbass. I guess I'll provide details during cell dis Sun.

Let me just explain why I have been inviting you to church,if u are reading this. God's love is so great and holy and His presence in your heart will bring great inner peace and joy that is unimaginable. This love is so undescribable that no words can be used to explain it. Therefore, we have to pass this spark on to our closest and dearest friends. For it's either heaven or hell and I just want to see more and more of my friends in Christ so that when Judgement day comes,we will be part of the New Heaven. That is something which no one can give,no mortal man,except for our Saviour and Lord Jesus Christ.So my prayer tonight will be,that even with my word given to you,you will still feel stirred up one of these days,to the extent tt you will just try.A li'l church never hurt nobody..:)